I have been totally M.I.A for the last week and I'm so sorry that I've deprived you all of my profound rants and rambles. But seriously the last 8 days have been maybe the shittiest ever! Remember last Monday when we were having a little pity party over here at My Fantabulous Wonderful Life....well the fucking pity party isn't over...we could actually call it a bash right now....we are well beyond just a party!
Last Monday I just started out crabby....I shouldn't have bitched because it's all gone down hill from there. Work has been beyond stressful with events that I would rather not talk about because god knows it will probably get me in trouble....my mouth has been known to do that from time to time. So....I've been dealing with some work drama and really reevaluating what I want to do when I grow up. Then on Wednesday I got a text from Stacy(daycare provider) saying that her daughter was running a super high fever and was diagnosed with hand foot mouth disease. Sweet!!!! Poor little peanut was absolutely miserable. Plus it's highly contagious so Justin and I decided to keep Mees home on Thursday trying to be proactive about the situation. I went to work on Thursday and got a call from Justin about an hour later telling me that Mia was running a fever of oh...somewhere around 103. Yeah....sweet shit huh?? Well she wasn't getting better and her fever wouldn't break so he finally brought her in...come to find out the poor girl had blisters all in the back of her throat and mouth...hand foot mouth!! So now I have this very sick little girl on top of a really really shitty ass week....not good for my mental status lately (oh you know...the whole postpartum depression, loneliness, single mom because Justin is still working nights thing....mental status is going down the tubes).
Mia was finally starting to feel better by Saturday but Justin and I were really lacking in the sleep department. I woke up Sunday morning at about 2am with a migraine....worst "headache" I've ever had. I was pretty much bed bound for the day and sick to my stomach because it hurt so bad. Nothing I took touched it plus I couldn't eat because of how nauseous I felt....empty stomach, tylenol, ibprofin and vicodin are not a good mix.....it's a barfy mix is what it is! Plus I was just not feeling good!
Then this morning I got a phone call at about 3:30am from my mom telling me that my Grandma (dad's mom) passed away. She lived at the nursing home that my mom and I work at. It was very sudden and unexpected.
So...I was going into this Monday trying to have a better attitude and then I hear this awful news. It sucks...sucks ass! I'm sad and feel awful for my dad. She was 92 and lived a good life but nonetheless death still sucks.
In the meantime after dealing with all of this this morning I made a doctors appointment for myself to just get checked out since my headache still hadn't really gone away and I'm still feeling like shit. So they did a strep test...came back negative.....oh but guess what.....I now got the fuckin hand foot mouth disease. Yep...blisters all in the back of my throat and mouth. Apparently it is very uncommon for adults to get but yes....this adult right here...fuckin got it. I feel like I am continuously swallowing needles and that my mouth is on fire ( I honestly feel so bad for little ones who get this because it aint cool...not one little bit). Honestly....I don't really know what else to say except FUCK!!! So now I can't go to work for the rest of the week...which wasn't all that bad since Justin and I had already taken Thursday and Friday as vacation days so we could take Mees to the water park of America and spend some family time together since we've really lacked that the last couple of months(which has now been cancelled due to my grandma's services...which is obviously more important).
So....thats why I have been a bad bloggy friend and have not posted or commented in a week. I can only hope that things will start to look up......and I can only hope for your sake that it does or your gonna be joining in on some more pity party bashes!!!
It has to get better right???
And this wasn't supposed to be a poor me post....just felt good to write it all out! Thanks for listening!