Dear Ry

Dear Maryah,
I want you to know that I think you are an amazing young woman.  You have inspired ME to be a better person.  Although I don't always follow through on the whole being a better person thing because I can be a nasty bitch sometimes (I DO have good intentions...most of the time)!!   I feel honored that you have let me be a part of your life for the last 6 years.  You are a one of kind, beautifully special young lady who has so much more wisdom than I could ever dream of.

 
I've come to realize that cancer fucking SUCKS....it SUCKS real fucking bad.  Sorry I said fuck....I know we've used that word once or twice.....it just speaks the truth and is powerful when talking about this nasty thing!  I hate that you have had to endure this battle at such a young age.  I hate that you have not been able to be a "normal" teenager.  I hate that you have not gotten to experience certain things that every young adult should.  I hate that this beast has consumed your body. 
I know that you don't look at it this way and again that proves just how amazing you truly are.  You are a much better person than I.  You are one of the most beautiful people I've ever met...inside and out.  I just hope that you know how much you are loved and how much you are going to be missed. 
You have taught me to live each day to the fullest and to never take anything or anyone for granted because you never know what the next day holds.  You have reminded me to kiss my munchkin as much as I can and tell her that I love her as much as I can because.... you just never know. 
The one thing that I want you to know is that I'm going to miss the hell out of you!  I know that you will be with all of us.  I know that you will be watching over everyone with that sparkle in your eye and a smile on your face. 
I love you very much and only hope that you will find peace and comfort on your journey home.  It is not the end nor is it the last time that we see each other.  I love you!
~Antie Nik