Month Four

This last Sunday on the 7th you turned four months old.  I have no idea where the hell these last 4 months have gone.  You are this whole little 4 month old person.  And I think it's safe to say that you are the cutest little 4 month old person I've ever known!!!
Unfortunately on Sunday we spent a good portion of our day in Urgent care.  You, at this point, have a little thing called RSV.  I have no idea what it is really but it's definitely not cool.  I refuse to look on web md or any other web site for fear that I will diagnose you with multiple ailments.  I don't want to put you or your father through my narotic tendencies.  They sent you home with a neb after the third time that I brought you in.  It seems to be working so we are praying that you kick this thing quick because you are all out of sorts and we want our little munchkin back. 

This last month has been exciting as usual.  You amaze us every day and we are pretty sure that you are already border line genius!  Thats just me though!
*  The drooling has not stopped and maybe has gotten worse.  If we could figure out something that it could be used for we could make a ton of money!!
*  Your love when your dad tickles you on your face with his beard.  The laughter that comes out of your mouth melts my heart.  And I'm pretty sure each time you do that you get your dad wrapped just a little tighter around your finger!
*  You love to sit up.  You are starting to play in your exersaucer and sitting in the bumbo.  It's not for long periods of time but it's a start. 
*  You have actually started to take a Nuk once in a while.  I'm glad that you don't rely on it but sometimes it works to calm you down.
*  You are a FLIRT.  You love boys, you always smile at your dad and grandpa's and uncles.  Again I'm hoping that this is not a trend.
*  You are grabbing at everything and shoving everything in your mouth.
*  You are becoming attached to your blankie.....I'm pretty sure if they made a big person version I would be attached too!
*  You've discovered your voice and love to hear yourself talk.  We love to hear you talk!! 

This next month should be fun and exciting.  The start of cereal and fruits.  We'll see how that goes!  I love you Lou Lou!!!

Diva Girl

A long time ago my wonderous parents would always say to me "Nik, when you have a child, I hope he or she is exactly like you".  I never really understood this because as far as I was concerned I was a fricken angel!!!  Why wouldn't I want a child just like me?!  Now as an adult I look back and ask why my parents didn't beat me?!  You all know the whole teenage girl issues. 
Some years later in the year 2009 I gave birth to a beautiful little girl.  Now almost 4 months later I understand the statements that my parents made.  I have a daughter just...like....me!  And god help my husband.  At the tender age of only 4 months old she is a total diva girl and already knows how to work her parents.  If she wasn't my child I would give her a big high five and congratulate her on being a total and utter genious!  But she is my child and so I can only sigh and curse my parents what they wished upon me. 
So the other night she fell asleep with me like she usually does around 7:30 or so.  Thats my time to snuggle with her.  I'm sure some might think it's bad that I don't put her to bed awake so she learns but I don't really care.  She's getting so big already and pretty soon she is not going to want to have anything to do with me.  So we snuggle!!! 
I put her in her crib around 8:30.  We heard her around 9:30 so Justin got up unwillingly (only because I asked him to switch nights with me and he wasn't real happy with that request.....I was tired and had a headache!) and went to feed her.  He came back to bed and we could still hear her stirring around so I decided that I would go get her and bring her to bed with us to try to get her to sleep because at this point the two of us were exhausted and didn't really care.  So I went and got her brought her to bed.  Got her all situated and snuggled in with me.  At this point she looked directly at me, smiled, closed her eyes and immediately went to sleep....as if to say "HaHa you suckas, I knew you would come get me!"  SHIT!!!!  What the hell did I do?  All Justin could say was this is not good!!!  At this point all I could do was laugh because what else do you do.  So we feel asleep and I got to snuggle with my little munchkin. 

How do you say No to this??!!

3 Months

It's been quite some time since I've written but I've been trying to prepare myself for getting back to work and leaving my little munchkin.  I started back at work this past Monday after being home with Mia for the last 12 weeks.  I cried most of last week, the entire weekend and on my way into work Monday morning, most of the day at work on Monday (I'm pretty sure I almost quit about 27 times), Tuesday morning, I think you get the picture.  I was/am sad about leaving my little punkers but also sad that I was leaving Nattie, Joe, Cart and Belle.  Mia and I spent everyday over at the Weis household.  It was/is important to me that Mia is close with her cousins plus it saved my sanity being able to be with my sister.  Natalie and I have always been close but being moms together now, I think, has brought us much closer.  We bonded in a way that only sisters are able to do.  I wouldn't have made it through the first months of being a new mom if it wasn't for her.  She is a wonderful mother and I look to her for so much advice and guidance.  She truley is my best friend!!!  We had a slumber party all weekend because neither of us wanted to let the other one go....sounds a little sad but we've come to rely on each other being there every day.  It's definitely going to be another adjustment.  I write as though we never see each other...which we do almost every weekend and quite a bit during the week.  It's just different now. 
Alright enough with the mushy shit!!

My beautiful little girl is 3 months old today.  You are becoming quite the little diva lady.  I could go on and on about all the cute little things you do but I'll just touch on a few:
* You have started smiling at everything....we love it!!!  It's not just some involuntary reflexes anymore but actual little person smiles because you are excited or happy to see one of us. 
* The drool has commenced!!!  It's a new favorite thing to spit and blow bubbles at us...so we just do it back minus the spitting.
* You recognize mommy and daddy and like to punish us now that we have upset your daily routine.  Again your little divaness is starting to show.  But you are just so damn cute that we can't get mad.
* You have found your hands.  Your father nicknamed you chocolate fingers because they are constantly in your mouth and they must taste something good!!
* The hair grabbing as also commenced.  Gotta love the long hair.  Thank god I didn't loose much while I was pregnant because it's definitely getting pulled out now. 
* Still a fabulous cuddler.  It's still hard for me to put you in your crib at night (some nights we accidently fall asleep in the big bed).
* You are starting to grab at things and stay focused for so much longer.  It's fun to see you under your play gym going to town on the rattles and whatever other hangy things are there. 
* You love bath time and being naked!!!  It instantly makes you happy when we change you or begin to take your clothes off.  Your father and I are hoping that this doesn't carry into your teenage years.....we'll need to have that conversation.  You might not be allowed out of the house until you are at least 25.
* You love to lay on your back and have us tell you how pretty you are!!!  You might get that from your mommy!!!! 

You amaze me every day!!  It's so exciting to see you grow (wish you would slow down just a little though).  Can't wait to see what this next month brings us!!!  Love you Lou Lou!!!

The Beast and The Monster

Once upon a time (May 19th, 2009) there was a little girl by the name of Ella (Beast) born.  She was my most favorite little fairy goodness (I'm her godmother) of all the land.  Then a short while after that once upon a time (October 7th, 2009) another little girl by the name of Mia (Monster) was born.  My most favorite creation to date!  These two little girls are the most amazingly beautiful, funny and great spirited little ladies I know.  That said, I can only imagine the truck loads of trouble that these two little girls are going to get into.  I can't wait (well I can wait because I'm not looking forward to late night phone calls from the police or whoever else these two decide to piss off (apparently there are rumors going around that these two are also somewhat like their mothers....I beg to disagree)) to see what these two spectacular little peoples become! 

As a side note there is a good possibility that Natalie and I are going to have to take up drinking and find a way to heavily medicate ourselves in order to get through the next 18 years, oh who am I kidding, forever!!! I love my little Beast and Monster!!!!

Bed Time

I haven't written anything for a while because....well frankly I haven't had a whole lot of motivation.  I have had every intention of writing but I just haven't. 
It's been a big couple of days around the Westbrock house.  Mia is finally sleeping in her own room in her own bed.....sorta!  She will be 6 weeks old tomorrow and this last weekend was our first attempt to put her in her crib.  I knew that Mia would do fine....it was more of a mommy issue than anything.  People kept asking if she was in her bassinet in our room and I had to kind of shrug my shoulders and say Not exactly.  Well where did/does she sleep you ask??  Well she pretty much sleeps on mom!!  Again I know what you are thinking but it's really hard to put her down.  What if she stops breathing or someone puts a ladder up outside and tries to get in her room or what if her blanket is covering her face or what if that big noisy fucking owl outside flies into the window and the glass shatters and it gets into her crib or what if all the walls fall down around her and I can't get into the bedroom and well I could go on and on with the what ifs.  I always think the worse!!
We are pushing through the anxieties and continuing to go our separate ways at night.  I will say it's nice to actually sleep on my side instead of flat on my back and it's nice to snuggle a little with my husband (and let me tell you thats all we are doing cuz I don't want to have anything to do with that at the moment!!).  I know the worries will never go away and I'll probably never really sleep all that soundly ever again but when I look at her it's all worth it!!!

P.S.  She is napping on the couch with me right now.  I need to start slow....I can't be jumping into anything to fast!!

One Month

Today Mia, you are one month old.  This past month has been absolutely remarkable.  From the moment you were born my heart feels as if it might explode.  I know people talk about the love that they feel for their children and how you can't explain it until you experience it.  Well, to all those people, you are absolutely correct.  I love you more than I ever thought was possible.  As the great Jerry Maguire said....You complete me!!!
This past month has been a lot of getting to know one another.  I think I'm starting to figure you out pretty good now.  And I hope that you are getting to know us (We are the ones that feed you, burp you, change your poopy diapers, sometimes we actually let you poop on us....well not exactly let.... but shit happens.  You can also refer back to the shit on the curtains incident)!  You love to eat....that would explain the fact that you weigh 10 pounds 6 ounces and are 22 inches long!  You are my little Monster Ass!!!  If we don't get the food in fast enough there is definite hell to pay.  You do have some gas issues (you get that from your dad!!)  I wish so badly that I could make it go away....I try my hardest though.  It's funny too because your dad and I get so excited when you have poopies in your diaper or you give us a good burp.  Oh how things change!!!
You love to snuggle!!  You might be the best snuggler of all time.  It actually sometimes cuts off my air flow because you wedge your head so far under my chin.....I don't mind though.  We've yet to put you in your crib.  I know I will be regreting that in the next couple of weeks when we attempt to do so and you want nothing to do with it since you are used to snuggling with mom and dad.  Again I don't mind....you are only going to be this little once and I'm taking full advantage of it. 
Your starting to smile more and recognize our faces. You have some pretty funny faces that you  make too....along with some pretty pissed off faces!  You turn beat red when your mad and have the most pathetic little cry that almost resembles a chipmunk.   I love the fact that I'm the one that can calm you down.  Because I'm the best mommy ever!!!!
As of now you look exactly like your dad...which is not a bad thing.  I did marry the man and expected to reproduce with him so I made sure that he wasn't all that bad looking!!!  I think though that you got the best parts of both of us.  Except you might unfortunately have your fathers forehead.  That might not be the best of both of us.  We'll just hope that it's not quite as cave manish as what daddy's is. 

I'm so excited to see the little person that you grow to be.  I wish though that you would stay this small forever.  I already feel like you are growing to fast.  I want you to know that I love with all my heart and soul!  You're my little punkers, Moo Moo, Munchkin and Munch!!!  Can't wait to see what this next month brings!!!!

I'm Good!

Apparently I scared a few people after my last post.  I'm Good!!!  I was just venting about my beautiful little child who likes to cry when she is awake!!  I don't want to throw myself off of our deck or anything (it wouldn't do much damage anyway....we are on the first floor of our condo building and I could probably hop over and land on my feet or ass since we all know I'm not the most coordinated person).   We are totally good though....I know it's normal for a lot of babies to go through this and I also know that it will pass.  I admit that it's tough and I do cry but I wouldn't give any of it up for anything.  She might cry when she is awake but when she sleeps she sleeps!!  Justin and I actually get sleep at night.  She usually sleeps for 4 hours at a time.  So I'm very grateful for that.

It's nice to have this blog as an outlet where I can write and journal and be sarcastic about whatever.  It's fun for me to share with everyone because as most of you know I'm very open and probably share too much information sometimes. 

Oh and P.S. Miss Mia is sound asleep in her swing right now!  Love that thing at the moment!!!
Oh and P.S.S.  I don't really think my parents are Ass Holes for wishing a child upon me like me......Well sometimes they are!  But I know I deserve and I'm sure earned it!  I wouldn't change it for the world though!